Friday, January 20, 2006
i am feeling very depressed. maybe it's something to do with my ahem ahem. but whatever. the main thing is...i'm feeling very depressed. i'm just your typical moodswinger,see.katherine and i were making plans to lose weight together (other than skipping meals. that is not the best way,frankly. because once your hunger is too overwhelming, you'll run for the refrigerator and start binging on potato chips or the finest belgian chocolate). but of course my tuition got in the way. how terrible. so now the plans are probably off.my life is really poooooooo. no wonder everyone thinks i'm weird. well of course, who wouldnt be weird if they were born to a HOD of Chinese at a Junior College, or a jetsetting father who hasn't been to college but has managed to secure very good jobs and also rubbed shoulders with celebs? and who wouldn't be weird if the person who taught them to talk was a Filopino? and lets be honest, of course i'd be weird seeing as how i havent even met my stepbrother or stepmother or stepfather and that my double eyelids only start showing up at age 14 years and 6 months.and of course,lets not forget that the people at school who squash my very nice high spirits and make me sulk inwardly no matter how i appear outside(but probably sulky as well - that's the expression i assume when i let my features go slack.so weird). oh my god. UTTER MORONS. of course, anyone who fails to notice my being less than normal with them is a moron. because i think it is very obvious, when i start glaring at you or make snide comments, that you have strayed into danger zone. and why, you ask, do i dislike you?1)you may like to suck up to people.2)or you could just be too bossy for me3)you're too pathetic. come on, be a laydee, not a fish out of waters.4)you're too desperate. 5)you simply have no humor. 6)you have bad hygiene. uh, hello, it's called toothpaste. try some.7)you're too greedy.8)you're too nosy. why must you simply HAVE to know everything? 9)you're too childish. excuse me??? the Dragostea Din Tei song (aka the 'maiahi maiahu' song) is your favorite song??? you think beachwear is the coolest things to wear at the moment? I think not.10)You're spiteful. BUT WAIT!!! those comments i hear shooting out of your mouth??? i think i heard them from 'Mean Girls' or 'Confessions of A Teenage Drama Queen'. sorry. you're catty and a pathetic wannabe at the same time.11) and of course...YOU GIGGLE TOO BLOODY MUCH. giggle. not laugh heartily. when you giggle it means that there is nothing amusing there but you want to appear like a fun person and also feminine. also, i think it may be possible to die of a)rage b)grief c)shame. i can feel the harmful effects of the above stated already. my stepsister and her boyfriend -aka my potential dutch brother-in-law- will be flying to Singapore tomorrow. isn't that grand. well can't wait to see her. but actually she's here to seek treatment for her blood problems. and it's a pity she isn't bringing my stepbrother along. well but since i think my stepbro is in his early twenties or even late teens, he might be in college.well anyway i havent seen them for two years. maybe they've changed. everyone says i look like my stepsis, but if that is so, then i must look like my father since it is through him we are related. but i don't look like my father at all. and i also think i don't look like my stepsis. except we're both pale.
[can't you see i want you?]
at 8:48 PM
