my almost full confessions

Saturday, December 31, 2005

well in a few hours, it will be the year 2006.and just an hour ago, i dyed my hair again.i am no longer a foxy haired girl. i am now a brunette again. My hair is now LINDSAY LOHAN COLOR POST-DYE JOB. seriously. she has now dyed her hair dark. and my hair is now her hair color. eeeerlack.

okay.whatever. just letting off steam babbledly (does this word exist? no? well. english in a growing language. accept it.move on.)

anyway. 2005 was a growing-up year for me. seriously.

15 of the things i learnt this year (2005 AD)
1) You can only wash your face twice a day.
2)and after you wash your face you must use toner and moisterizer(maybe it's spelt wrong...)
3)Many many many people are superficial.In CCHMS,3/4 of the people there are.
4)it is best to wear lip balm/gloss, or else your lips will crack and shrivel up (maybe.)
5)Don't be everybody's best friend.You need to stand up to some morons sometimes,even though it'd be hard at first.
6)Don't be everybody's enemy either. There is something called 'prejudiced' in our society.
7)Don't let yourself be bossed around and put down all the time.
8)My mother needs drama in her life.
9)I can lie to anyone without them guessing I'm lying.
10)My eyebrows suck.
11)It is actually a good thing to not have thin lips.
12)Garbage is one the best bands ever.
13)Some people try too hard and I can't stand them.
14)Some people like to copy things I do/have and they pretend they're original.right.
15)I must own every Agatha Christie,Meg Cabot and Loiuse Rennison book before I die.

My 2006 resolutions... (could i keep them?no?ah well...)
1)Pass all my exams.
2)Excel in E Lit. and English and Chemistry.
3)Pass my 2.4km run(or is it now 3.2?) the first go.
4)Leave the bloody zits alone.
5)Not to cry in front of anyone at all.
6)Get 300 testimonials.
7)Be mean to anyone who is mean to me first.
8)Remember to stay angry at people for more than 3 days.
9)Get anti-virus for my computer.
10)Learn to cook something.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 8:18 PM

Friday, December 30, 2005

yesterday i watched one of my sister's rented DVDs - Interview with a Vampire. it's based on a book by Anne Rice, who also wrote Queen of the Damned which was also made into a movie(Aaliyah?the singer who played the female lead?she died in a plane crash after she finished shooting the movie.so...tragic.)

anyway Interview with a Vampire has a star-studded cast, though i doubt they were as star-studded in 1994 when the movie was screened as they are now.Brad Pitt,Tom Cruise,Antonio Banderas,Christian Slater and Kirsten Dunst. Tom Cruise is actually not bad-looking in the movie.at least,when he wasn't covered with green scaly thingies or was burnt to vampire mignon. Brad Pitt looks as,er,good as now? except without the few wrinkles and maybe he was less muscular back then.and when Antonio appeared all I could think was,ooh,Zorro with long hair.but he plays a vampire from Gay Paree in the movie of course.

And Kirsten Dunst was of course only 12 years old then, but she looked about the same as she does now.her face hasn't changed at all.kind of creepy.she got to hug Brad and Tom in the movie.she was the tragic part of the movie 'cos after becoming a vampire she can never grow up.and in the end,well,she got toasted by the sun,right in the arms of her mother by adoption who also was a vampire.But i don't quite understand her character relationship with Brad's character.ahh weird.

anyway probably later i am going to watch Be With You,which my sis rented too.it's supposed to be this very sad sentimental fuzzy mushy movie.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 1:10 PM

Thursday, December 29, 2005

yesterday i encountered several artery-bursting taxi drivers.well two to be exact.i was going for Chemistry tuition ya see,and well my mom couldn't drive me again.you'd be glad to know that this time i didn't skip chemistry.because,you know,i enjoyed science tuition classes more than A Math.

so i went downstairs and managed to hail a cab after two minutes (i swear lots of cabbies like to wait along the road that opens into 3 condos - Bayshore Park,The Bayshore and Costa del Sol) but the driver didn't know where Heartland Mall or Hougang Street 21 was. So i promptly bid him goodbye and got out.I hailed another one after minutes.He wasn't sure where Street 21 was but at least he tried to get there.but you know what?

he was sleeping on the job.i am not kidding you.i prayed to God,don't kill me I'm only 14.

well obviously i made it to Hougang in one piece or I wouldn't be typing now.i actually enjoyed Chem class...

and then after tuition my mom picked me up.fortunately,because i have a feeling if i encounter another sleeping-on-the-job taxi driver i will sue.for trauma caused.we went to Nanyang JC where she works and i had to wait in the car for ten minutes while she got some documents left in her office or something.i've been to the staff room of NYJC and it's kinda glassy and all.

after that we went to my old house at Toa Payoh to check how the renovators were getting along.Nombre de Dios,a lot was done.they had built an extra room already,painted the rooms and all...Mine is a dark blue and my sister's is a violent orange.i thought the dark blue didn't look so bad but my mother was kind of scandalized.but whatever.it's my room,you know?

i'm going to frame some movie photos and hang them on the walls,like how my room in this KL penthouse looked like.minus the four poster bed and the toilet joined to it.ah whatever.

anyway after that we went home.after dinner we went to Parkway Parade for shopping.well 'cos my sister wanted to.she was in a better mood today which is great.she can't speak and whenever she gets irritated she kinda screams with her mouth closed.so basically she sounds like growling or roaring.

i picked up two shirts at Karen something (karen millen?karen miller?karen p something,i think.) which is beside the new Topshop.this is sickening ya know?a month before i'm leaving the east coast,they open a new Topshop!sacre bleu.

and we also went to MPH.my sister rented like six DVDs and i bought another two books by Agatha Christie,The Clocks and Three-Act Tradegy.

when i get my own room i shall need lots and lots of bookshelves.and when i get my own house i will probably need a library like old houses during the Victorian era did.not open to the public,but to myself that kind of library,i mean.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 4:58 PM

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

i am feeling sick.actually i guess i might be sick.not in the pervertic way,of course.

i skipped drama session this morning.because i couldn't be bothered to drag my butt there.and also i bet lots of people wouldn't go.EDS is full of slackers...like me.

gosh,my throat is hurting me...maybe it has something to do with singing 'Wherever You Will Go' by The Calling last night like a drunkard.well.i was working on the stupid book review and i get bored easily and i needed something to concentrate on besides copying from the edited version to the version i am going to pass up.

anyway yesterday i had to go for A Math tuition.my mother had to go work so I had to take a cab myself all the way to Hougang from Bayshore.the uncle took a very different road from what i'm used to.he went by Tampines Road which proves to be a verrrrry long one.but anyway less traffic lights and better scenery.haha! but i had to pay $11.70 .and i only had like five bucks left?

anyway i was planning to skip A Math and needless to say I did.i hate it when the teacher singles me out and keeps calling on me.argh.and the girls over there,in their threes and fours,snigger whenever I don't know how to answer the teacher's question.oh poo poo poo!crap and double merde.

i spent the time lounging in Popular Bookstore,where I finished a book and a half for free!haha.they didn't have a very wide range of books though.so I read,of course,Meg Cabot.I read the Princess Diaries Christmas book thing,and quite a number of chapters from Mediator: Ninth Key.I tell you i love the Mediator series.Ninth Key is the second book,and the only one i haven't read finished out of the six books.anyway it's about a girl who can see ghosts and eventually falls in love with a ghost.if my life was like that i would,er,despair?

anyway i would have spent the time in San Bookshop but i had noticed a sign 'Do not read here'.and anyway i didn't have enough bucks for one book!whatever.

Did you ever feel like you should have said
Something smarter at that time
Did you ever feel like
you should have kept
In all to yourself
Did you ever think it might be your fault
And never promise anymore
Did you ever think it might not be me
Now it was always me?

And I wonder,if I'm just
built this way
'cos every man that I know
makes me feel like
I'm to blame
When it's over
me and my selfish ways
Go back to start again

----- Samantha Ronston, 'Built This Way'

[can't you see i want you?]
at 10:01 AM

Monday, December 26, 2005

naomi,remember you said my eyebrows kind of suck?

even my mother says so.crap.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 9:59 PM

Saturday, December 24, 2005

I just came back from a Christmas play thing,organised by Elizabeth's church.honestly i was very very surprised when she invited me,because we were all kind of mad at each other when the fourth term ended.because.well.that's not for you to know.

but whatever.so i got invited and i went.naomi and meng siew were invited too.so they went too.tada!

anyway before that i had,you know,tuition.gbedkhfglhegF.I HATE TUITION!!!!!! the a-math teacher keeps picking on me.yeah well,i suck very badly at maths.but,calling on me will just do nothing except embarrass me.

everything she calls on me i lose my cool and i start stuttering and going 'um,er,uh,yeah' like that.tmdtmd.

anyway after A-math i had Pure Physics.Oh well.It went better than A-Math did.at least the teacher doesn't call on me.she only calls on guys who don't pay attention in class.I'm a girl and I pay a lot of attention during class.because i like science better than i like math.

after tuition i intended to do a sprint to my mother's car so I wouldn't get late for the xmas thingo at 5.30 (my tuition finished at 5) but i nearly hurtled into Zhenglin outside the classroom.i hope he didn't recognize me.i don't like being recognized outside school by classmates who aren't really friends.

anyway I was dressed all in black.well,black long pants and a black camisole with a white singlet attached.You can never go wrong with black if you have the least fashion sense.i actually have very little clothes and i hate wearing the same things in public repeatedly.and no way was i going to wear bermudas and sleeveless tees every week okay?

anyway.met elizabeth,naomi and mengsiew at the bottom of the building.which wasn't a church.it was some kind of...i don't know.just a really old creepy building with signs that say 'guard dog.7pm-7am' on every floor.oh really.a dog's no match for anyone with a gun...poor things...shut up.brain.

anyway,i recognized a few people.lina,ruth and a couple more.elizabeth pointed out benjamin,who goes to the same school as my sister and also the same cca(band!) to me.i thought he was timonthy.how sad.i have a very poor memory.

but whatever.anyway first we had to play games like whacko.god i hate that game!!!i made sure to mumble my name into my mike,so that nobody caught my name and could call it during the game.see?i can plan!

anyway soon after that we had refreshments(as they put it...).after eating and drinking i found i needed to go to the Poo Place.The building's poo place was very creepy and seemed to be out of the movie 'Dark Water'.one time elizabeth,naomi and i went there and while elizabeth was inside,we closed the door on her and switched off the light.oh she gave a glorious shriek.

the play was okay.funny at times.i liked the hip-hop dance part.ha!ha! but after the play the pastor (i think he is...) started,um,preaching?I'm not a Christian,i wouldn't know.what he basically said was that if you believe in god,you'll have eternal life.

okay.great.but i'm not christian so when everyone closed their eyes when he prayed,i didn't.i'm a buddhist.i just bowed my head,'cos i was scared everyone would kill me if they found out.like call me traitor or something!anyway i don't want to live forever.i'd rather die early.well,i do!because if i die early i won't need to experience the pain of losing my dog and my family...not that i'd commit suicide.

anyway.i could write more.but this post is very long.and i'll just finish with: after all that talking,we went to the poo place once more.and then we basically went home.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 9:36 PM

Friday, December 23, 2005

What is wrong with some people?

eg. My sister is sleeping soundly now even though it is 1:05pm and some construction work is going on and I am playing 'Smooth Criminal' by Alien Ant Farm very loudly through the computer speakers.And the previous song was 'Hey Kids' By Jet.You'd think anyone else would be up by now.

or

eg 2. The workers next door are,instead of renovating the house,are playing video games.I wonder how come there's a TV there.I can see them because my window overlooks their window and their windows are open.The condos here have blackish-colored windows which deflects light or sth so we can't really see inside the houses.GOOD IDEA.oooh.the workers are racing each other virtually.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 1:02 PM

Out of bed at the crack of noon
Blare the music & have a swoon
I can't stop thinking of your face
lalaleelaleeloolace

I'm six feet under the bodhi tree
with my crap new age philosophy
diamonds where there once were stars
I'm sitting in Jayne Mansfield's car

Yea! I'm independence!
Yea! I'm borderline!
Yea! I'm California!
My mind's all screwed and upside down
But my heart's on overdrive
--Katy Rose, Overdrive

I am feeling very crazy all of a sudden.The sad thing is,I do not know what to do with my craziness.Which is why I have taken to tickling my dog in his sleep every five minutes,or doing lousy quizzes on Quizilla.

I feel like going to East Coast Park later in the afternoon.It's right across my condo (a big haha! to all those unlucky ones who have to drive from I don'tknowwhere just to use the park) and I can just walk over using an underpass. The problem is, I don't really want to go out by myself.It's no fun,going to the park of many many kilometres by yourself,especially when you're feeling crazy.

Besides,what would I do there?I hate cycling.I used to be really fast when I ran,but after I started cycling on a weekly basis when I was like 8 or something, I kind of didn't move as fast as before for I don't know what reason.Maybe my legs were too muscular for me to move lightly or something.ARGH.muscular legs???? No thank you. On the other hand I don't want what muscles I have right now to convert to cellulite! crap i MUST excercise.And not just the Friday-night tennis class.The gym!Yeah!Gym!

But then again,whatever resolutions I may make,I simply am too lazy and i Can't Be Bothered to do anything.crap.

I also don't really want to go tennis class tonight.it's not as fun as i thought. Now I want to do air-ballet,like Angelina Jolie in Lara Croft. I wanted really badly to do photography,however,there wasn't time for me to do so.It is crap.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 12:41 PM

Thursday, December 22, 2005

I got contact lenses!whoops-a-daisy.whatever that expression means.i got them two days ago and spent a horrible one hour and a half at the spectacle shop,first trying to put them on and then trying to take them off.

i actually had to touch my eyeball to take them off.really.it was kind of gross...i was afraid i would,like,poke myself accidentally or accidentally press my eyeball deeper into my eyesocket or sth as shitty as above.but whatever.

right now i'm good at removing contact lenses,but slipping them in is another thing.i spent like ten minutes yesterday trying to put them in,which is not a good thing,because most people do it under one minute and if i spend 10 minutes putting in contact lenses on a school morning,i might as well not go to school because i'd be dead late.

i did think of getting colored lenses,like purple or red for fun...but i decided that 1)my mother will kill me 2)the school will kill me.

And i got your bday present yesterday,Char...Its a book.hopefully you don't have it yet and will approve of it.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 12:00 PM

Monday, December 19, 2005

Okay,I'm a really horrible girl.I was supposed to be attending E Math tuition yesterday,but I totally played truant.I got out of the car,and instead of going for tuition i headed for Heartland Mall.I went to the San Bookshop there,where they sell secondhand books cheap.I spent as long as i could to pick the books...

I bought 'Dancing In My Nuddy Pants' by Louise Rennison and 'The Mediator Book One:Shadowland' by Meg Cabot...Do I regret it?not really.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 1:16 PM

Friday, December 16, 2005

tmdtmd.its like so many people do their book reviews and hand up already,or can't be bothered to do.actually i fall into the second category,but now i'm trying to do.so maybe i fall into a third category.

just came back from the marine parade library.was supposed to go there do book review with naomi(who lost her book and hence didnt do - ha!) but all we did there was go Friendster, browse books, call up/sms people to ask if they did the cursed review already and would they let us copy?

but everyone has done it.everyone!everyone!everyone!and handed up.

well,not everyone.but lots of people...

[can't you see i want you?]
at 6:26 PM

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

Gah...yesterday went to Changi Hospital (the new one,of course) with my parents to visit my sister. The anaesthetic still rendered her semiconscious and so she was like just lying there with a bloated mouth and appeared to be sleeping.

The Fusser made me say hi repeatedly to her,even though it was clear my sister doesn't like to be disturbed when she's resting.I was very irritated and was like,'Ah do it yourself la.' i hate it whenever she keeps making me repeat things.hey just because she's quite deaf in one ear doesn't mean the rest of us are.

i looked at the Huffer-Puffer and to my horror he had tears in his eyes.thank goodness he didnt let them run out.it would've been horrific if he had cried.

truth be told i got a little teary-eyed myself.but it's ok for the kid to cry.it's a horror movie if the father cried.but i didn't cry,of course.because i knew if I was the one lying there my sister wouldn't cry. i mean,just accept it,won't cha?

in the car my mom was kind of sniffing.it was a horror movie,but a B-grade one instead of an A-grade horror movie like how it would be if my father had cried.because,well,women do cry.my mother cried when my dog had his leg operated on and came home and soaked full a bedsheet of blood.she cried when we were watching Troy in the cinema,when Paris' and Hector's father was begging Achilles to give him Hector's body.

i tried to cheer them up,really.i think i managed it.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 12:28 PM

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

shit shit shit later i have to go tuition again.A Maths, at 5.45pm. MY LIFE IS SUCKY.Once school starts I WILL HARDLY HAVE A FREE DAY YOU HEARTLESS PARENTS!!!!

So far the only free day I will have during the schoolterm would be Thursday.But guess what???I am sure they will make the Sec 3s have remedial every thursday in preparation for the O-levels which,for heaven's sake, we will only take in 2007!!!

Today my mother commented on how unfeeling I was.Because my sister just had her operation (in the early morning. It was a 6 hour operation,I hear) and I didn't seem worried at all.Actually,I'm not.

Because,you see,this operation isn't life-threatening.They're just gonna do away with some jaw.The worst that can happen is that she will have a scar and be disfigured.But if that happens we can call in Dr Woffles Wu to laser away the scar.And we might just sue.Tada.

And what my mother wants me to do is puky.Has she lost her mind???Hello,i've lived in the same house as her for 14 years and she still doesn't know me well enough???Why can't she accept the fact I have a problem expressing feelings verbally?Huh huh huh???And in case you forgot,mutti, I learnt all that from my dear sista.So you don't come barging into my room at 10pm at the night and force me to say disgusting words that could be found in corny movies like 'Daredevil' and crap.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 2:57 PM

Monday, December 12, 2005

My sister,the Huffer-Puffer and the Fusser has just left the house for the hospital.My sista's operation will be tomorrow,probably.i hope the Huffer-Puffer and the Fusser will loiter in the hospital rather than come home and nag nag nagging at me.

Give me a break, vati! i am 15 next year,not 5 years old.I know not to throw socks at you,but into the laundrey basket.You have a house in Shanghai,so why can't you go stay in it?

Yesterday night we went Orchard Road AGAIN!!! good grief. i am now heartily sick of going to that place...and not buying any new clothes. my mother keeps ranting about how I have a lot of clothes and I won't need any new ones, but if that is so, then how come I can't find anything to go with my turqoise-colored skirt? Well,I can find one, but it's this really traditional,peranakanish white blouse which has a lot of buttons.I cannae stand buttons! Ye may take my life, but ye cannae take my body's freedom ta move about!

My sister was really moody.I have no choice but to attribute that to her apprehension of her operation. she will not be able to talk for weeks after the op, so i decided to give her a hearty chat.Oh,not a sisterly one like 'don't be worried i'm sure you'll be fine' (erlack!!!! i am not sentimental) but one on how disgusting guys and primary school kids can be when it comes to blowing their nose. We both came from PCPS where the uniforms are white, and my sister started on how she observed that her guy classmates liked to wipe their nose on their sleeves and that left a very visible stain,and did you know that when you keep sucking in your mucus when you have a cold,it all goes down your throat???!!! that's why it all disappears suddenly. and i suppose we both got mental images of some of the guy classmates we know who don't bother to bring tissue and seem to always have a cold.I bet their digestive system is very,hm,slippery.

we both started laughing like loons on loon tablets. i don't know why.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 12:53 PM

Sunday, December 11, 2005

It is common knowledge that to fill up your youngest daughter's weekends with tuition classes is PURE FRIGGIN' CRUELTY!!!

i have just returned from Chemistry and E Math class at Mavis Tutorial Centre.Heaven help me,four torturous hours spent in freezing classrooms,crammed with fifteen other students.

Friday
I went Kinokuniya again.You'd be glad to know that i only bought mystery books and no chick-lit books.I bought The Complete Sherlock Holmes' Cases Volume I -for ONLY fourteen bucks,wheeeeeeee!- and four Agatha Christie books(A Murder is Announced, The Labours of Hercules, Cat Among the Pigeons, Sad Cypress).

In the evening i had a tennis class at the Singapore Chinese Swimming Club.i haven't played tennis since i was nine.so i was really rusty at the start.a girl called May Ann (sth like that) struck up a conversation with me and we hit off quite well.

Halfway through the class,guess who walked in? Denise!!! haha.i was kind of shocked.What a small island I live in...

Saturday

Tuition again! Physics and A Maths. After i left the tuition centre I got an sms.From Zheng Lin.'Hey I saw you at mavis!'

Omg.why do i keep running into going-to-be-ex-classmates?

In the car the Huffer-Puffer and the Fusser were talking about my sisters.Or at least,my sister and my half-sister.They are all going into hospital.Different ones.One in Holland and one in Singapore,of course.My half sister is 31 years old,lives in Holland,works as a secretary in Holland's tallest building (36 storeys,I believe) and has been cursed with blood diseases since birth.The Fusser, cruel stepmother to her, predicts she will not last long!!!

why the Fusser is like that,i will never know.

My sister will be going into hospital tomorrow.Surgery for aesthetic purposes.they are going to cut away some jaw.Erlack.

they offered to push up her cheekbones (high cheekbones,to look more western) but she disagreed.I suppose she doesn't want to look entirely different.If it were me,i would have agreed.I want to go somewhere nobody'll recognise me and judge me and crap.

but if it were me,I'd have sticky out teeth,only one double eyelid and a long jaw.and braces.Erlack.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 3:16 PM

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

my hair has been dyed...the red is really visible underneath sunlight.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 12:53 PM

Monday, December 05, 2005

This is poo! the way my parents behave. it's enough to make a sensible person like me go red with embarrassment for them. and they don't even notice, until i tell them they make sensible people go red with embarrassment.

today we (me,my mother and father) went to buy my next year's schoolbooks and uniform. i swear, i kept asking for a bigger sized uniform (compared to what size i wore for the past 2 years) and my mother looked very scandalized. she says wearing big shirts suck. double merde, it is not.

and you know what? the people at the book shop messed up. tomorrow my dear vati who likes to huff and puff at waiters is going back to exchange some books.

i only got into 3HM 06 because of my Literature marks,not because i was good at science and math. so the vice-principal told me i had to buy both pure and combined science books (pyschics and chemistry).i may study pure science,but unless my marks are miraculously good,i have to do combined science papers during my examinations!!!

POO.sacre bleu.

and the people at the bookshop didn't give me the combined science textbooks,even though i had ticked them in the list.they thought I had made a bloody mistake.excuse me.i may be clumsy, but i'm not BLIND. i know what i ticked and what i didn't. i didn't tick the column for the biology book and they gave it to me.

they thought i was doing triple science. i suppose.

and the Lit books? ah well, they didn't have 'Much Ado About Nothing' and 'The English Teacher' yet. i don't worry, as i have Much Ado About Nothing. nevermind it's the summarized version. at least i'll get the gist of it.

why do they always,always make us do shakespeare? huh huh huh? first Romeo and Juliet (by the way, 'wherefore' does not mean 'where. it means 'why'.so J was asking 'why are you romeo?') then Macbeth and now Much Ado About Nothing. my sister did Animal Farm, Roll of Thunder Hear My Cry, I Know Why the Caged Bird Sings, To Kill A Mockingbird...

You know.Books that deal with things like politics and racism. Not forbidden love or stuff like that.

Nevermind.at least I am doing Lit.

and i am getting my hair dyed. well not all of it. just some of it. Wella named it 'Bright Volcano Red' or something like that. It's kind of orangey-red which I'm not sure will look, um, passable on me. 'cos i'm WHITE. but my Mutti says if i am going to dye my hair i might as well dye it something striking and since my hair is already near auburn, dyeing it dark red will be a stupid thing to do. so she says.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 5:48 PM

Saturday, December 03, 2005

Oh this is horriblement! My family are gonna move - not to Australia, but back to our Toa Payoh HDB flat. sucky. i guess i'm too used to staying in a nice condo with a fab view of the sea and Coasta del Sol,the disgustingly nice condo next door with the nice big windows.

we will move there next year,probably during late january or february.

anyway my sis,mother and i went back to our old flat today,to clear up some of the mess 'cos the contractor is gonna start renovating our bedrooms (yes i finally get my own bedroom!) and they're gonna start work on our cupboards first. it was a rather sad thing,'cos my mom kept making us throw away our old books and some of our old toys.ok it sounds childish.but i'm emotionally attached to some of them.

so what did i do? I GOT THE INSANE IDEA OF HIDING SOME OF THEM AMONG THE PLANTS!

if she finds them tomorrow (she's going back tmr wif my maid Estella) she is gonna kill me.i hid one glass chicken,two silver swans and one wax candle mushroom thingie.i feared she would water the plants herself,but thank goodness she made me do it.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 9:02 PM

Friday, December 02, 2005

15:32

tada!i have updated my blog's layout...debbie helped me pick this layout out of four,so thanks (:

spent some time trying to get the whole thing right.if it wasn't the tagboard missing,it was the counter.

sad to say,my tagboard's scrollbar happens to missing,but i've seen enough HTML for one day and i shan't update it.at least now.so if you wanna see older posts from my tagboard just click on some part of it and drag down.

oh,holy...
i just realized the time and date of my posts are incorrect.two days behind,to be exact.hm hm hm.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 3:31 PM