my almost full confessions

Monday, January 30, 2006

Right. so, in probably half an hour or so, NYJC's lion dance troupe will be shaking their lion asses in my house.

why do they always have to come? oh yeah, because my mom always has to invite them every chinese new year. whatever. she keeps going on how it's a privilege for us and she had to pull lots of strings and give some moolah just to get them to come.

yeah right, like who would want to invite a junior college's lion dance troupe with the exception of the said junior college's staff? i mean, hello. they are like seventeen or eighteen years old. you could at least invite a team of grown-ups who won't knock over anything on the way to your living room.

anyway i have been looking at the money i have gotten from my relatives in red packets. just looking, not counting. because i can't be bothered to. but at a rough estimate, i'd say i've gotten one hundred and seventy dollars. the hundred dollars come from my parents (they each gave fifty bucks to everyone!) and the seventy from the rest of my stingy relatives.

they really are. every year my parents give fifty dollars to everyone. EVERY YEAR, EVERYONE. and my uncles and aunts? they're happy to give like twelve bucks or at the most, twenty. even though their own children are earning money already.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 11:37 AM

Thursday, January 26, 2006

have returned from the hell-on-earth known as school.

do you know, i've failed all my tests so far except chinese. i even got a zero in A Math. it sucks so very badly. and i bet you anything i'll fail my E Math quiz too. it's only 10 marks, but it's not a nice feeling to fail.

but i just can't cram all those formulae into my brain. because if i do, it'd mess up my mind and i'd go bonkers. and anyway my subconscious is always saying 'Why do we need to study this crap?It's not like we're gonna use it when we grow up.'

anyway drama sucks. we sec 3s have to audition in order to remain in the club! they want to kick out some people because too many sec ones joined. bummer. it's not fair. i mean, those nerdy sec ones weren't the ones who worked their asses off in the SYF last year or helped out in the 8am-10pm Drama Nite either.

originally we were supposed to tell a true story from our own lives for our audition. but just when i finally managed to come up with something, they changed it!!! now we have to memorise a part from Macbeth and act it out!!!!!!

whatever. i'm usually fine with some people and i can be all silly when i want, but then again. it depends on who i'm around with. usually not boys. and i bet you i have to interact with guys in the audition. Lady Macbeth is chatising Macbeth, and I bet you the Macbeth is going to played by one of those sec four guys.

eeeeer. i'm hoping it's going to be,like, Tony or Yup Huat or Sunthai. i always scold them in real life anyway.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 2:28 PM

Monday, January 23, 2006

a state of distressment. homework left undone. inspiration = gone.

and all the silly little boys who talk too much, and the sad little girls who cry too much.

let go!

[can't you see i want you?]
at 10:23 PM

the dutch guy has taught me what 'nether' as in 'netherlands' means. it means 'low'.

i listened to the dutch coversation between my stepsis and her potential husband. the words sound very...weird. there are words like 'una' 'kayaka'. stuff like that. it doesn't sound european at all.

Ramseys - that's my potential stepbro-in-law - is tall, blonde and has a very short face. really. if his face was longer, he might resemble the coach guy from Bend it like Beckham, i suppose. only less good looking and more red faced. but whatever.

anyway i am feeling very sleepy now. and sick of everything already. i need a holiday now. true it's been only a few weeks since school reopened, but i didnt exactly have a really good holiday before, on account of staying in singapore and having to go tuition like three or four times a week. bummer.

godddd. i am nearly going broke. i have only 24 bucks. and it might not be enough to last me the rest of the month. i need to pay for the bloody lit book which costs $11. and also for the fucking files. say, perhaps ten bucks worth of files. and thus four dollars. what can you buy with FOUR dollars??????

[can't you see i want you?]
at 6:33 PM

Sunday, January 22, 2006

well my stepsister and her dutch guy is here now. ain't that great.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 3:45 PM

Friday, January 20, 2006

i am feeling very depressed. maybe it's something to do with my ahem ahem. but whatever. the main thing is...i'm feeling very depressed. i'm just your typical moodswinger,see.

katherine and i were making plans to lose weight together (other than skipping meals. that is not the best way,frankly. because once your hunger is too overwhelming, you'll run for the refrigerator and start binging on potato chips or the finest belgian chocolate). but of course my tuition got in the way. how terrible. so now the plans are probably off.

my life is really poooooooo. no wonder everyone thinks i'm weird. well of course, who wouldnt be weird if they were born to a HOD of Chinese at a Junior College, or a jetsetting father who hasn't been to college but has managed to secure very good jobs and also rubbed shoulders with celebs? and who wouldn't be weird if the person who taught them to talk was a Filopino? and lets be honest, of course i'd be weird seeing as how i havent even met my stepbrother or stepmother or stepfather and that my double eyelids only start showing up at age 14 years and 6 months.

and of course,lets not forget that the people at school who squash my very nice high spirits and make me sulk inwardly no matter how i appear outside(but probably sulky as well - that's the expression i assume when i let my features go slack.so weird). oh my god. UTTER MORONS.

of course, anyone who fails to notice my being less than normal with them is a moron. because i think it is very obvious, when i start glaring at you or make snide comments, that you have strayed into danger zone. and why, you ask, do i dislike you?

1)you may like to suck up to people.
2)or you could just be too bossy for me
3)you're too pathetic. come on, be a laydee, not a fish out of waters.
4)you're too desperate.
5)you simply have no humor.
6)you have bad hygiene. uh, hello, it's called toothpaste. try some.
7)you're too greedy.
8)you're too nosy. why must you simply HAVE to know everything?
9)you're too childish. excuse me??? the Dragostea Din Tei song (aka the 'maiahi maiahu' song) is your favorite song??? you think beachwear is the coolest things to wear at the moment? I think not.
10)You're spiteful. BUT WAIT!!! those comments i hear shooting out of your mouth??? i think i heard them from 'Mean Girls' or 'Confessions of A Teenage Drama Queen'. sorry. you're catty and a pathetic wannabe at the same time.
11) and of course...YOU GIGGLE TOO BLOODY MUCH. giggle. not laugh heartily. when you giggle it means that there is nothing amusing there but you want to appear like a fun person and also feminine.

also, i think it may be possible to die of a)rage b)grief c)shame. i can feel the harmful effects of the above stated already.

my stepsister and her boyfriend -aka my potential dutch brother-in-law- will be flying to Singapore tomorrow. isn't that grand. well can't wait to see her. but actually she's here to seek treatment for her blood problems. and it's a pity she isn't bringing my stepbrother along. well but since i think my stepbro is in his early twenties or even late teens, he might be in college.well anyway i havent seen them for two years. maybe they've changed. everyone says i look like my stepsis, but if that is so, then i must look like my father since it is through him we are related. but i don't look like my father at all. and i also think i don't look like my stepsis. except we're both pale.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 8:48 PM

I skipped drama today. well who asked them to only start cca at FOUR???? and until six! it's OUTRAGEOUS. what are we supposed to do for the almost three hours,anyway??? but anyway i'm feeling very guilty. i know i'm letting down ms cheong down and that feeling sucks. and also i'm worried if i don't produce an MC or something, i'll be given my first warning for skipping drama! oh my god, so paiseh if that happens. even worse if i get kicked out.

but well if i get kicked out...i could join scrabble club anyway. well i don't care.and i don't care.

penelope also ponning drama today. i think. i hope. gah.

anyway i figured out today, i like lying. by lying i don't mean 'lying on the bed' but 'i feel so terrible after lying to my parents'. that was just an example, i don't really feel any guilt after lying to my parents. i guess it's fun sometimes. i know it's weird. well, i GUESS it's weird. for all i know there may be an Association of Lying People somewhere in the world.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 2:49 PM

Thursday, January 19, 2006

great i feel soooo horrible.horribly and mentally.gotten the you-know-what during PE yesterday.

and when it's that time of the month, pimples appear all over my face. i tried putting on toothpaste to dry them out, but this doesnt mean they've disappeared.

and where is L'oreal when i need it? mom has forgotten to pick up L'oreal Hydrafresh Facial Gel and now i have to use Olay. eeeew. Olay is better than Biore, but nowhere as good as L'oreal or Garnier or Biotherm.I could buy it i guess, but i only have 30 bucks left and i'm saving it for

a)eyebrow tweezers
b)eyebrown pencil
c)nail polish
d)eyeliner
e)new lip gloss
f)ear piercings.

okay, all aesthetic stuff. but I'M the one who decides what to do with MY pocket money.besides once i've bought them, i can buy other things next month or so when my $100 is replenished. books, of course you know that, don't you?

anyway last night a really scary thing happened. the tuition centre called up my mom! to complain of my not turning up for E Maths for so long. my mom was like,'where did you go?'

and i quickly thought up a lie. well a white lie, it always works best rather than a through-and-through lie. i was like,'oh i reached 1/2 hour late, remember? so the teacher kind of forgot to tick my attendace...' and the previous Sunday's excuse,'we were moving house,remember?'

and she actually bought it! whoooaa.

anyway. i can't really be bothered to blog more now. i am going to add all my new songs for my mp3. gosh, i nearly wrote 'snogs' instead of 'songs'. snogs if you didn't know meant making out.

Ha! i wish i had snogs.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 3:39 PM

Monday, January 16, 2006

oh my god today has been Let's-Give-YuQing-unwanted-attention-day.very suckable,i tell you.

it didn't rain today again,so we had FRC. have to stand there shake around until the whole thing finish. Mr Soon seems to like staring at 3HM's direction. maybe checking out naomi's hair which still is red(walao mrs p never catch you.eryugh!) or me who hadn't tucked in shirt at the back or had messy hair. but whatever. he hasn't said anything yet. maybe it'll take him the entire year to convince himself naomi's hair isn't completely natural.ha!

but whatever. anyway mrs p says to wear at least 75% white shoes.crappers,i like my sports shoes ya know.they are GRAY. surely that's better than blue or even black??? so now i have to wear my sister's old school shoes to school. how crap. i didn't run well enough in SPORTS shoes which are specially designed for running. god knows how well i shall fare in the 3.2km run in normal shoes.

anyway had runny nose and a bit of cough. very uncomfortable since i had to keep blowing my nose or else i might suffocate,or worse,breath through my mouth.i think i disturbed the people around me during lessons.ahahah. anyway i put the dustbin beside my seat for convenience, but the stupid e geog !"£$%^&* went "Why is the dustbin here?" in that voice that hurts my ears.

anyway the guys behind me were really good.they moved the dustbin away behind 'em. and also when me and naomi gave them some candy and junwei got caught by the stupid e geog !"£$%^&* he just lied and he surprising got off lightly. i think. but of course the !"£$%^&* pounced on him near the end of the lesson again, because she saw a sweet wrapper. poo. sacre bleu.

who cares whether you trust us or not? you don't have to. we're not making you to trust us. this is life, come on. YOU are the one who's dreaming. this is the 21st century.

anyway recess didn't eat anything. trying to save money. also because of sore throat. one strepsils only. strangely didnt feel very hungry after wards. by the way, am listening to Harajuku Girls by Gwen Stefani now. really a cool funky song. try it! hah like an advertisement.

physics and chemistry next. physics really bores me, but i don't have a very good grasp of it either, so i really must try to concentrate during class. at least mr dawood didn't shout at me for failing to meet the criteria for the trapezium thingio like three times.i like chromotography, i think. and i think i actually won't do so badly for chemistry! Ms King-Kong isn't that bad after all. and it pays to not skip chem or physics tuition. ha!

anyway near the end of lunch naomi and i sitting at the bench in the middle of the 4th floor,waiting for the poodle to turn up. lots of ABs walked past. one even opened his shirt. oh i can't stand them. i have concluded there are more ABs than ALs. but both are just as bad.

chinese was a boooooooring business. of course.but whatever. anyway there was assembly and we made a desperate run for it, awaaaayyy from the chineseness.

assembly, was of course, another talk. to inspire us. it wasn't that bad. in fact it made me more impulsed to work harder. really. i am going to start on my a maths tonight, and then revise physics.

went home with charissa and her bro joshua. they really look alike, while there's nothing similar between me and my sister. perhaps we come from different gene pools? haha...i wish. i used to think i was adopted or something, because i am nothing like my parents. and my blood group? my father is an AB+,my sister is an O, my mother is an A. and I am a B. but i read that the B part could be derived from the AB.breaking down,like. maybe i'm just a biological sport. which means my dna(or is it gene) was mutuated so i turned out different.

whatever. i am glad i did not travel alone on bus 31 today. i shall make sure i will never never ever ever travel on a bus alone again. if i can help it,i mean. a mentally retarded guy came on board and sat at the left seat in front of the back seat where char,joshua and me were seating in. he apparently knew the malay girl sitting one seat away from me,near the window. apparently she's also mentally retarded. it sounds awful, saying mentally retarded, but i'm just quoting charissa,eh? besides, what is the use of being tactful? the truth is the truth. Verity is a beautiful word, like what it means. i shall not say 'someone with Down Syndrome' or 'an unfortunate abnormal person'. it does not please me.i am not kind.

anyway after finishing a bit of conversation with the girl, the crazy guy turned his attention to me.i had not taken off my nametag...simply because i forgot. next time i shall remove my nametag as soon as class ends. he went 'pssst' 'hey' 'yuqing' at me!!!!!!!

he bloody wouldn't leave me alone. he kept at it for dunno how long la. so creepy. i just ignored him and wouldn't look at him. i find the best way to cope is just to ignore the bloody problem and pretend it doesn't exist. luckily he went down two stops earlier than us, or he might have followed me. i don't know. i don't like mentally retarded people, because i can't be sure what they'll do next.

went foodcourt next. ate ice kachang, though i knew i shouldn't... but whatever. took 232 next with charissa and joshua. another creepy experience. weird woman in pink kept staring at,well,me. at first i thought twas because charissa kept singing 'Lala' loudly and crazily. but then when she noticed i was looking back at her as though she was nuts, she proved me right in the she-is-nuts theory by smiling funnily at me. boy, that one lil smile scared the living daylights out of me. luckily i was able to get off soon. and when she didn't have me to smile sneakily at, she did it to charissa!!! omg. another crazy one?

[can't you see i want you?]
at 6:59 PM

Sunday, January 15, 2006

doesn't my grandmother have anything better to do then watch TV the entire bloooooody day? huh? GOD. if i ever manage to get old and not get killed early or something, i WILL NOT end up like my grandmother. you know, whole day sitting there have imaginary pain (it's not just me.even her own daughter -my ma- admits that much),watching TV or thinking/speaking of food.

YES. Food.

That is very sad. There's a saying 'You can't teach an old dog new tricks'. this is sooooo not true,you stupid moron who invented that saying. because. i've seen it for myself - living proof which comes in the form of my own dog who happens not to be very young anymore. i have taught him to understand the words 'No' 'Home' 'Eeeew' 'Give me the cloth'. the purpose of saying 'Give me the cloth'? it is actually a way of starting a game with him... but i shan't elaborate since it seems very fun only for he that wags his tail. i play with him because he needs something else to do besides napping eating or begging.

when i am old i shall have a more meangingful time.hey it's the last stage before your death - enjoy it.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 3:57 PM

Friday, January 13, 2006

today was such a suckable day la can. made me wonder why i sometimes behave the way i do. like a giggly bimbo i mean. afterwards i sit back and reflect on how much i like to embarrass myself. oh merde.

today i pangseh naomi and xueli to go with penelope,wan ning and jodie for lunch at parkway!!! god. am so sorry about that. but my cca started only at 3.45pm and band at 2.15 and i didn't want to be left alone for the rest of the 1 and a half hours.ahhh sorry...

nearly bought a wallet there. but of course i didn't think it was that nice. so now i'm saving up for hundred bucks a month for a nice one.no billabongs or ops or ripcurls for me. just a nice plain woman's wallet will do.

anyway i didn't want to hold up the others. especially the one whose stead turned up. ha!

especially since they were all - yea including the stead- helping me choose a wallet. oh so paiseh.

DRAMA SUCKED. c'mon man, skip the stupid introductions and activities and get down to business leh! the instructor keep scolding the group i was in la. ayy can't like her. i know we're going to start on a play sometime, but i don't know when. and i also don't like the person who keeps finding mistakes and highlighting them. come on let my bloody fringe ALONE LA. and don't you dare use me as a bloody example. SPEAK FOR YOURSELF.

grrr.

anyway like 18 or 19 sec ones joined EDS! surprising. and even more surprising was that they were those jolly posy kinds who over react. last year's batch of sec ones - now sec 2s- were those nice quiet ones who mostly agreed with me. ha.

there was only one guy. but he was sooo cute! i mean it in the way like you really really really wish to pinch his cheeks! shannon kept squealing (like a girl....but he's a he), "so cuuuute! so cuuuuute!' the last syllable ended on a high pitch. he also sounded cute - the new guy Roy. ahahaha.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 8:12 PM

Thursday, January 12, 2006

My life is poo,my life is horriblement,I saw a devil,of that i'm sure.

truly.i am feeling so damn bloody furious now. some people deserve to be choked, smashed into pieces and then be jumped upon. i think i have a lot of control over myself ever since i turned eight and learnt that if i did carry out the awful things i planned to do,i would end up in jail or the girls' home.

but it's not good for me,ok? sure sometimes i might not do any physical damage onto you, but i'll wreck my own room, and i'll start tearing up things when i'm crazy. so don't you piss me off, ok? i am not in the mood to analyze the consequences of causing you as much pain as i can.

god.some people.why is it GOOD people like Princess Diana and Evita die young? and UTTERLY IRRITATING MORONS like my sister and some people at school don't? honestly during dinner my mouth was like twitching because i wanted to say something very rude and insulting to my sister.but of course nobody does that in front of their mother. anyway even if i did,my mother wouldn't side with me. because why? oh yeah my sister happens to be a swollen mouth on account of her operation and had to eat with a syringe for like 2 weeks.

SO?

if i can keep my bloody temper behind bars,so can you. hey just because you look ugly with a swollen mouth and sound ugly with your muffledness DON'T TAKE IT OUT ON ME. why? BECAUSE I AM TALLER THAN YOU EVEN THOUGH I'M FOUR YEARS YOUNGER AND I'M ALSO HEAVIER AND I CAN FLATTEN YOUR MOUTH FOR YOU.PAINFULLY. so kiss my arse before you try another of your princessy comments on me.

i think i shall die of an apoplexy. or a heart attack. but whatever. i am too pissed off to feel horrified by that.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 8:23 PM

I'm only happy when it rains.

probably.

pour your misery down
pour your misery down on me
i'm only happy when it rains
i'm only happy when it's complicated
i know you can't appreciate it
i'm only happy when it rains
you know i love it when the news is bad
oh it feels so good to feel so sad

that song's by Garbage, one of the best bands ever,i tell ya. they're not really goth-rock. they just happen to sing about things nobody dares to sing about. like homosexuality,and dressing like a tranvestite and the measures some people take,just to feel OK ('bleed like me').

anyway it HAS been raining. which is good. because i am happy. because we don't have flag raising.and Mrs P can't find out(under sunlight) that my black hair dye which is supposed to be permanent has been...disappearing. really. i took a good look in the mirror under sunlight and my hair is VERY red.ahhas. anyway i don't think singing the national anthem and the school song EVERY SINGLE DAY WHEN IT DOESN'T RAIN is a very good way of promoting whatever they're supposed to promote. all it does is to make us bloody sick of it. and we don't even bother opening our mouths. we don't even look forward to going down for FRC.

and it's been really cold these days. sometimes i like it, sometimes it gets too cool. i could really do with some hot chocolate,you know?

but of course we can't drink/eat in class, because it is commonly thought that teenagers are clumsy things and will spill stuff which will attract all the ants in the universe.

but i think it is a good plan. because since all the ants are there, we can just spray insecticide on them and be rid of all the ants around.

whatever.

i seriously suck in my studies. it takes me like centuries to understand how to do the math and physics questions. why do i even bother living anyway huh? i mean, we're all just going to die anyway. so why should we care about how far a pendulum swings? and who's the bloody moron who mixed the salt and sugar together and wants to separate them using filtration and dissolution? he could bloody well use the bloody time he used on separating the salt and sugar to go buy some more salt and sugar from the nearest NTUC.

going home now is such a hassel. i spend like an hour or so just travelling home,and that's not counting taking the lift or ringing the doorbell and waiting for my maid to open the door. and the buses i take? the routes suck. they go to all the auntie-and-uncle-favored places. so all i see are aunties and uncles,and their equally beng and lian children. not interesting. in fact, downright disgusting. no wonder foreigners' hotspots are still Orchard Road. so all i do is sleep on the buses.

people at school? erggggggh. i feel like slapping like 3/4 the people at CCHMS. and not just the students, all right?

i am just a sleep deprived mood-swinger.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 4:07 PM

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Yes,I am. forgetful and confused,i mean. that's the title of this post, but of course you can't see it. because my blog layout scheme doesn't work that way.but whatever.i like the layout anyway, but i am going to change it. Change is good,in this case. and probably change the music,too.probably from Damien Rice to Switchfoot.ahhas.

this morning i arrived at sch at 6:30am,very early,considering that i arrived at 7am last year average.anyway i climbed up the stairs, for what seemed like centuries because my classroom is now sadly on the fourth floor.

anyway i thought i was at the fourth level already and so i went down the corridor to the last class in the row.i went in,put my stuff down at my seat.there was only one other person around, a short scrawny little guy who kept looking at me weirdly. i was like 'whaaat?'.i went to my locker and found that it was locked with a lock.

how weird.me and naomi didn't use a lock...maybe huisi accidentally placed it there instead onto her locker's,which is beside ours.but whatever.i'd wait for her to come to class then i take my books.

so i went to the toilet.i washed my face cos i was like damn sleepy.then i went out again and then i noticed a)the bridge connecting the old classroom block to the new block b)the place was full of guys in shorts. and i realized i was in the third level.POO.

so of course i had to go back into that classroom,grab my stuff and head upwards again.tmd,so paiseh.the short guy was joined by another short guy who also found a new hobby in staring weirdly at me. i hope i never see them again.which is 50 percent possible.but whatever.i've already forgotten how they really look like.

and then of course i had to leave my books in 3MD classroom.we have to go there for Chinese lessons and i had left my bloody cl textbook and file under the seat at the back,and didn't notice until after two hours.then have to burst into 3MD classroom and grab my stuff before Mr Lam noticed i was there.at least,i think it was Mr Lam.i only saw the back of the teacher's head,you see.

oh,i hate going home now.i have to take 31 now,alone.i also have to walk to the bus stop by myself now.not a nice feeling. i miss Bayshore Park.the sea.....arhhhh.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 8:34 PM

Tuesday, January 10, 2006

Ahahahahhhhas the last post was all crappy.thanks to the combined efforts of Na-youuuuuu-meeeee aka Boobtoucher and Chaaaaarrrrrrriiiiiiiissssssaaaaaaa aka you-piece-of-shit-sayer.

ahhh had so many spelling mistakes.i meant 'molested' not 'meloosted'!damn.

i am now in my new-old house. it doesn't look that bad now, i suppose. full of wood and white and shiny-floorness.and i get to have my own room now. hahah! no more listening to people who don't clear their noses properly. and now people actually have to knock before they enter. wowee.

i was arranging the clothes in my wardrobe(shared by nobody except maybe insects) when i noticed that I actually have very few clothes.it's only because my wardrobe is small that it looks like there are a lot of clothes.but that's not true.

also i have noticed that i have lost one pair of schoolsocks.i have only one pair left!!!! crappers. i have decided to wear that pair of socks for the entire week and not risk washing it and it not drying in time for school the next day. so whatever you do, do not smell my feet from now on. ahhhaha. well it's my life don't you forget (to quote Gwen Stefani).

watched Final Destination 2 this morn. i heard it was this gory movie but i thought it wasn't THAT bad.except for the part when Sam's ma got her hair torn off.eeew.and double eeew.

and then went to Plaze Singapura with my sis and ma.my mom had to pay for some Starhub thing. and afterwards we bought new clothes of course.ahahah...i bought stuff from P.O.A and wanted to go Ripcurl, but i kinda felt funny so we didn't.

well tomorrow is school again,so crap. i wonder. if i can't even be bothered to drag my ass out of bed to go for school, what happens when i grow up and have to work? provided i'm qualified for any type of work besides sweeping the road and cleaning toilets and all. maybe i could be a tai tai. yeah right.or work from home? i was thinking maybe a secretary. i mean, just take down notes, make appointments right? like my stepsister in Holland. she's worked as secretary for a long time, and she still manages to buy lots of perfumes and makeup from M.A.C and Bobby Brown and all. ha.ha.

but whatever. i am going to school and die from boredom.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 10:15 PM

Monday, January 09, 2006

I am a pile of shit.yaaaaaaay. and naomi is stepping on her.my ass la.she typed that.

hello everybody. im naomi, yuqing's stepper of her own shaet. i love the smell of ________. and splashing charissa's brain out with water. random right. ya random. lame. WHAT? WHAT!! !! charissa is so shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiitayyyy. she smells like DUNG. how very retro. ya right. LAEM!!

my post! EEEEKKKKK! those two boobtouchers deleted my post la ok. see naomi's boob is hanging on the floor.l ,=l\42 G naomi can BOUNCEu!!

yuqing: I AM NOT A BOOBTOUCHER OKKKKKKKK?????!!!!!!!!i WAS MELO0STED BY LIKE THREE PEOPLE TODAY, ALL OF THEM GIRRRRRLS I AN A LES MAGNET LA.TMDTMD.

yuqing is so attractive. we love her. muchhie muooochie. yumieeee haw haw.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 1:51 PM

Saturday, January 07, 2006

okay.i shall be moving to Toa Payoh...IN A FEW HOURS. *sobs*

my poor dog my poor dog.he will be so trapped there.like me. I AM GOING TO MISS BAYSHORE PARK BLOODY WELL. okay. first i'm stuck at Toa Payoh. then I move to Bukit Timah with the GREAT view and greenery. THEN they make me move to the East Coast,with an even better view,with the sea and all. AND THEN THEY MAKE ME MOVE BACK TO THE PLACE IN TOA PAYOH. BACK TO SQUARE ONE.

i have decided that after secondary school(if i complete it here in cchms) i shall go to Australia for junior college.Trinity College, probably in Melbourne or Sydney.No way am I going to live the rest of my youth in Singapore.i just can't. Just like how Reeese Witherspoon's character Melanie in 'Sweet Home Alabama' couldn't.

whatever.i've gotta do well in my exams first,before i can do anything like that though.but that doesn't mean i'll go for a math tuition.

my dog is staring pensievely at all of us. he knows.he knows that we'll be shutting him up in a van and driving him off to the house where he lived for the first five years of his life,in 2 hours' time.

my last day in this house and all i can do is not believe it.

this morning's CCA thingie sucked. bored out of my skull. i'm telling you no guy in the right sexual orientation will join Drama Club. They are either gay or are perverts who join for the many girls in the club. erlack.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 1:03 PM

Friday, January 06, 2006

i am soooo freaking tired.i almost slept just now (on the sofa) but my sister hit me with a cushion. and tomorrow still have to go school,even though it's a saturday. but then my saturdays are never exactly relaxing these days,thanks to the bloody tuition. i have made up my mind to skip every A Math tuition lesson.the last one was pure bloody torture.everyone there thought i was like mentally retarded or something all because i couldn't answer some stupid questions.and from now on my parents won't be paying the teacher to teach me, but to keep her mouth shut.

anyway we have to try and get the new secondary one kids to join our CCAs.i must say, the sec ones look kind of cute and chubby and geeky to me now.i suppose we all were like that,even though we kept thinking we were grown up and all...anyway it'd be fun watching Nerds growing into Your Average Joe/Jane(or whatever.)

today i spent centuries helping out the Drama Club cut brochures, paste them to straws (so they look like lollipops, but unintentionally of course) and all. it was actually kind of fun,but my poor fingers are so tired that they aren't typing as accurately as before. anyway we had to cut like ONE THOUSAND of them and we nearly died.ha.just kidding.anyway only a few people really helped out,like,er,FIVE? including me,of course. in the end Ms Wee paid us for our efforts with chocolate.ha.One bar of Time-Out.Or was it Snickers?

but whatever.tomorrow i'll be moving house! omg i'm so sad about that. i'm gonna miss Bayshore Park. the great view of the sea. and the sea wind. east coast park. sure,Toa Payoh is convenient. but it's so ugly and man-made, and it's full of Ah Bengs and Ah Lians. Cheekopeks,too.people that never fail to amaze me with their outdatedness, stupidity and pervertness.

my dog is totally gonna despair when he gets there. oh,no more long walks in the park or the condo grounds anymore. no other dogs. just mean stray cats and withering grass. and I am going to hate it there.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 7:46 PM

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

today was a rather nice day.it rained.but whatever.you probably won't even care whether it rains or not.

and i don't like the new chinese teacher.simple as that.she reminds me of Creepy J, alittle.

had first CCA session of the year.but drama was kind of lame today.ms cheong and ms wee didnt even turn up,and we were left to our own devices.we had to figure out how to lure innocent sec one students to join Drama.well,surely it won't hurt to have some new blood,but what if some of them turn out to be like Creepy J? i'm sorry, but eeeeeeew.

katherine,penelope and i left EDS early on the pretext of having tuition.ha!ha!ha! didn't it seem suspicious that all three of us had tuition?Kat and Pene went off,and i hung around school for ten mins waiting for my dad to pick me up.

i hate the school socks. they are so damn long.so i wear them like ankle socks even though to mr soon,it is a crime. but whatever.it's the 21st century.nobody has the right to force us to wear ugly nerd stuff like those socks. perhaps sooner or later the school will force us to wear berrets, once they tire of our awful hairstyles.something like that.

oh and i also hate that stupid person who keeps looking at me in that weird way and makes me want to shake him/her and ask 'What???'.i hate him/her because i can't shake him/her and shout at him/her.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 4:15 PM

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

right.have a HUGE problem?well yeah come over to me and start crying over me and wailing.don't even care whether i'm squirming,desperate to runaway.make a mess and then leave me to clean up after you.don't notice the fact that my face is turning bright red.honestly.

oh,and if YOU(you know who you are) ever read this.i accidentally cursed my grandfather one day and he died the next day.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 4:17 PM

hey you crappers.even though i am teetering on the edge of Sleepiness and might collapse with exhuastion any moment now, i am still Making An Effort.to blog,i mean.

i think i only managed to catch like three hours of sleep?i only fell asleep at 2 something, even though i went to bed at like 9 plus.i suffer from mild isomnia, probably. and i was woken up near 6am.i especially woke early that day 'cos i wanted to chop seats in the classroom with naomi and charissa.anyway since i was in a stupor, i was late for the deadline i had set and i kind of squashed my contact lenses into my eyes.well that hurt.i refuse to put on contact lenses when i am in a hurry from now on.

punched in at school,just in time before they went for band. we were sitting at the back!!! whoa,i was crazily happy about it.i LOVE sitting at the back since you are the farthest from the teacher as you can get in a classroom.anyway i mastered the skill of smsing without looking down.

but whatever.anyway huisi was -surprise surprise!- joining us 3HM peeps.

oh,drat,the stupid alex just msn messaged me.to laugh about my being picked on by ms periera this morning for dyeing my hair.well actually ms periera is a NICE teacher,you moron. laugh la.laugh la.i hope when you go pierce your other ear the guy will accidentally rip your ear off or something.aaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!

well,anyway apparently the brown dye isn't enough to hide the red dye,under sunlight.then ms periera asked me about it.she spoke in an undertone so that like nobody would hear.and i was like all surprised,'cos i thought my hair was really dark brown and not,you know,red.

anyway i made a few friends in 3hm.some of them are really nice.and cool.26 girls,14 boys.i didn't talk to the guys though.

anyway the entire day was kind of fun, except for the part when the principal kept rambling on and on,and when i was afraid mr soon would go pick on me,and of course flag raising.i CAN'T keep still for more than 10 seconds.and i don't know why.and during FRC, we have to stand still for like five minutes or more. so you can imagine how much i twitched or fidgeted or shifted to the other leg.anyway i know i'm ungrateful to the principal for not being exactly thrilled to listen to his speech.i mean,he let me into the 8Lit class even though i'm not exactly rocket-scientist material.

but i had lots of laughs that day.and we did a kind of list,stereotyping people.i know it sounds kind of mean, but hey, it was for our entertainment you know.and it's not like we didn't destroy it so that we wouldn't hurt other people's feelings.

and we kind of made up new names for ourselves.my name is Yu Qing,but i decided the new name should start with an A,because C(harissa), A(something), N(aomi). i thought of pretty wild names like Atalanta or Amalthea, but of course they were WILD. over my dead body will I be called Atalanta.Char thought of a really sweet one, Annette.so Annette it is.Wait.Is it spelt with only one 'n'?

Naomi picked Natasha.I actually prefer the name Natalie,it sounds kinda cool.Natasha is cool but Natalie is kind of cooler.I don't know why.maybe i was comparing Cameron Diaz's character in Charlie's Angels to Natasha Bedingfield....ahh.And charissa was going to pick something too...but either i was temporarily deaf or she didn't.

but whatever.i have tuition later in the evening.i can't risk skipping it to go Popular Bookstore or San Bookshop.'cos my parents will be roaming around Heartland Mall,buying stuff including my black hair dye.

i mean,if dark brown doesn't work on my hair,i have to resort to drastic measures.BLACK hair. my hair has never been black.i noticed last year that my hair's natural color kind of reflects the weather.sometimes it's just plain brown,and sometimes with yellower highlights,and sometimes even completely auburn.

too bad i had to go ruin the naturalness of it by dyeing it Volcano Red.and then Fascinating Brown.And then later, Midnight Ebony.

CRAPPPPPPPPP.

[can't you see i want you?]
at 2:21 PM